I have tried buying 2 new bathing suit tops and was excited at first but disappointed after trying them on and wearing them around. The first one I was so thrilled about as the back is so cute but once I wore it in public and saw myself in a picture, I was a bit horrified to be honest. My boobs looked so HUGE that I was afraid I would scare a small child. The other top I bought at Target and was so excited as it looked like it offered more coverage but was still super cute (I got a medium this time). I tried it on to show Kody and soon learned that it was uncomfortable and yanked on my neck. UGH! My boobs definitely popped out of that one too but not so pornographically. The tag is still on it so I think I will be taking it back. I just don't know what to do at this point. I want to love and be proud of my boobs but I don't want to be this self conscious about them. I'm back to my old ways of worrying too much about what others will think. I am trying to talk myself out of that kind of thinking by reminding myself what my boobs and body went through to get to this point.
The other weird thing I've noticed is that when I run (and I don't mean for exercise), say out of the dr's office, down the stairs, through the parking garage and to my car because I'm late for my hair appointment, my boobs tingle. It is the weirdest thing and yes that is a true story...I lived it today! I've felt this happen a handful of times in the past few weeks. I wonder what that could be.
Then the other day the freakiest thing happened: I was lifting my arm to put on deodorant and heard this liquid-y, squishy sound. I was like "What the hell was that?" and asked Kody if he too heard it, which he did. I tried my other arm and same thing! I immediately began to panic and wonder if this was a new and permanent thing. I kept lifting and lowering my arms and had an inner freak out for a hot minute. I could tell it was my implant being squished or pressed on each time I lifted my arm. I guess maybe it's the muscle pushing on it but I won't know until I ask Dr. Mosier when I see him on April 7th for my areola tattoos. I will say that I haven't heard that sound again since last week, thank goodness!
Here's hoping I can find a bathing suit soon as summer in Austin, TX is rapidly approaching!